Not a-Mused

Ah, the elusive muse! Sometimes it feels like she has a mind of her own, appearing only when she pleases. Maybe she’s lurking somewhere unexpected—in a new environment, a favorite book, or even a conversation. Sometimes shifting my perspective or doing something entirely unrelated to writing can coax it back out. Taking the pressure off can often help inspiration flow again when she feels distant.

I read a few inspired quotes and articles earlier, rode the bicycle a bit, and even made guacamole from a huge avocado off the tree.

Inspiration often finds its way back when it feels like you’re not chasing it.

Memento Mori

As I reflect on Día de los Muertos, the Day of the Dead today, I find myself admiring how this vibrant tradition jives with the Stoic principle of memento mori, the reminder of our mortality.

Memento mori, Latin for “remember you must die,” is a concept that encourages us to contemplate the inevitability of death—not as a source of fear, but as a guide to living a more meaningful life.

Día de los Muertos—a Mexican celebration in remembrance and love for those who have passed—brings this idea to life, honoring the present by acknowledging the brief nature of existence. When the Spanish Catholics conquered Mexico, they moved this day to align with All Saints Day 11/1 and All Souls Day 11/2.

For the Stoics, death is natural and inevitable. Memento mori teaches us to hold each moment closer, knowing that nothing lasts forever. Similarly, Día de los Muertos offers a unique perspective on mortality by encouraging us to see death as a continuation of love, a bond that endures in the memories we cherish and the offerings we make.

I respect Día de los Muertos for its reminder that the lives we remember today were once lived with joy, sorrow, resilience, and dreams—just like ours. It’s a celebration that draws us closer to the essence of our humanity. In the Stoic view, contemplating mortality is a call to live fully. Día de los Muertos mirrors this by inspiring us to embrace life in all its beauty, brief as it is.

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This holiday reminds me that there’s a purpose in reflection and honor in remembering, a sentiment that resonates deeply with memento mori. It’s a beautiful, enduring tribute to life and to love that transcends time, and I am grateful for it.

Novembook 1st

Right. It is the first day of the eleventh month and it is time to put ass to chair and write a novel in thirty days.

I am procrastinating. Not my fault really, just dealing with some life issues here such as legal issues, potential new career and a family member flying down here for the week.

30,000 words in thirty days to develop a rough draft for this new novel. No fussing over function, grammar or missteaks. That is what the writing software, Ulysses, lives for. He just looooves to remind me about those punctuation marks being in the wrong place, or being completely ignored altogether. He red-flagged that “missteaks” mistake too. Damn, nothing gets by him.

Did I tell myself I was going to wean off of the soda this month? Did I tell myself that I had not and will continue to suck those down frequently? At least until December 1st anyway.

The sun is almost up, the body has been cleansed, the soda is on the desk so I am out of excuses.

Let’s write this thing.

P.S. Ulysses missed a comma that I intentionally left out. I win.

EOM Checklist

In an effort to maintain and preserve decades worth of text and images to the Archives, I have set up a checklist for monthly backup procedures. 

Text

  1. This website’s .xml files are exported each month
  2. Each month’s posts are collected from the Denbow Operating System then sent to print to .pdf
  3. Each month’s posts are physically printed out and stored into a three-ring binder.
  4. Each month’s posts are sent to the e.pub format and then sent to Kindle/Apple Books to be read there.
  5. Then transferred to an external hard drive in the Archives section  under the  2024-10 folder
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Images

  1. Each month’s photos are filtered, tagged, facial-tagged, geo-tagged and sorted 
  2. These images are then uploaded to Flickr for offsite backup
  3. Then transferred to an external hard drive in the Archives section under the  2024-10 folder

In the past, I was negligent with my works but have slowly and painstakingly managed to create an effective backup system. It’s not flawless, but it’s better than having data scattered all over the place. 

SubStack

I just signed up to publish a newsletter via the Substack platform. I wanted and needed an outlet away from this personal space for more… external writings. Most of this platform will be dedicated to the Explore More book as a companion to it.

Will it amount to something? I hope so. I do not want a social media presence again so maybe this is the happy medium I was looking for.

You can find the link on the Newsletter page here.

The Struggle

In the past, I used to be a popular writer. Now, I’m certain that my closest friends or family do not read my work, even here in my home. I cheer and actively support them, so one would hope there would be some interest. Even feigned.

How do I expect to grow an audience for my future writing endeavors? Sad, but it could also bring freedom. I write for myself here, creating what ever strikes my fancy, knowing most of it will vanish into the void. That’s fine—writing is an introspective art that doesn’t need validation from others.

The struggle has been finding a clear direction. Spending years on a project no longer excites me. To balance this, I need to pursue what I’m passionate about and allow myself to finish things without committing to the epic novels in my head, or even a series. At this point, what am I passionate about? This struggle was mentioned earlier this week.

Since I am writing for myself currently, the goal for now is to make it as rewarding as possible.

My creativity and inspiration waxes and wanes more frequently than the moon does. Annoying.

Sweet Emotion* 

Music has an incredible ability to enhance my emotions, particularly genres like classical, blues, and jazz. I know, I know. This is not a unique experience, but this is my website and my turn to write on the matter.

Here’s why these styles have such an impact:

Each genre has histories that resonate. Blues and jazz are improvisational, so that allows musicians to express their raw emotions. Each and every note is a feeling being poured out. Classical music is structured and complex. Their intricate compositions engages my brain and forces me to think. The layers of melody, harmony and rhythm creates a powerful emotional experience too. These genres, for me, causes physical reactions too such as chills and maybe even an increased heart rate.

When that saxophone is being put to work by a jazz artist and hits those deep, raunchy notes that crawl up and down my spine to make me smile.

Every time a blues guitarist slows down and holds every note for emphasis, my skin will chill and my heart is tugged.

My brain is actively engaged while picking out individual instruments in an orchestra to listen to its performance and then moving on to the next instrument.

Once again, I am kicking myself for not ever taking a course on music theory or music appreciation. For now I will take solace and inspiration while pure jazz is being played through the speakers behind me after midnight.

* with apologies to Aerosmith

Our Creations, Ourselves

We decided to play God, create life. When that life turned against us, we comforted ourselves in the knowledge that it really wasn’t our fault, not really. You cannot play God then wash your hands of the things that you’ve created. Sooner or later, the day comes when you can’t hide from the things that you’ve done anymore. – William Adama, Battlestar Galactica

You can’t play God without being acquainted with the Devil – Robert Ford, Westworld

It’s alive, it’s moving, it’s alive! It’s alive, it’s alive, it’s alive! It’s ALIVE! Oh, in the name of God! Now I know what it feels like to BE God! – Henry Frankenstein


I dreamt last night about the planet Mars of all things. Currently the only entities on the surface are probes and rovers. The dream progresses with the addition of more sentient robots that we sent up there to lay the groundwork for near-future human exploitation, exploration. Finally, these machines have made this new world their own in a desire to thrive without human intervention.

I’m sure if I remained asleep, that dream would have gone to its natural progression of conflict between Earth/Mars and humans/robots. We’ve seen and read the stories to know how it turns out.

Well, I have been awake for a bit and pondered it further:

When we consider the latest portrayals of sentient AI, like the Cylons in Battlestar Galactica and the Hosts of Westworld, we’re faced with themes that challenge us on multiple levels. These stories tap into our collective hopes and anxieties, making us question the boundaries of humanity and what it means to create beings in our image. Here’s a breakdown of why these narratives resonate so deeply and what we can learn from analyzing our responses to them.

  1. Fear and the Identity

In Battlestar Galactica, the Cylons, machines once created to serve humanity, have evolved to look, feel, and think like us. The quest to understand their own purpose echoes humanity’s struggle with identity. Similarly, Westworld presents the Hosts, programmed with narratives but trapped in cycles of exploitation, as they gradually awaken to their autonomy. Our unease around these AI beings lies partly in their similarity to us and the discomfort of confronting what makes us… us. Are they reflections of humanity, or do they redefine it? Our reactions are guided by the tension between empathy for their plight and fear of their potential.

  1. Control and Hubris

Scientists Were So Preoccupied With Whether Or Not They Could, They Didn’t Stop To Think If They Should.

– Ian Malcom, Jurassic Park

Both series explore the creator’s desire for control and the dangers of hubris. The humans in Westworld and Battlestar Galactica wield control over their creations but fail to predict the repercussions when these beings become self-aware. There’s a warning embedded here about the pursuit of power and the responsibility we hold toward our creations. We might feel a mix of guilt and apprehension as we watch these AI struggle under human domination, bringing up the uncomfortable realization of the ethical consequences of our technological advancements.

  1. Morality, Autonomy, and Free Will

Sentient AI raises complex moral questions about autonomy and rights. Both the Cylons and the Hosts struggle for freedom, a journey that resonates with audiences because it mirrors historical and ongoing fights for human rights. This struggle forces us to reconsider the morality of creating sentient beings in the first place. Should they be free to choose their destiny? Or do we cling to control to protect ourselves from what they might become? The conflicting feelings of sympathy and dread push us to re-evaluate our understanding of moral responsibility.

  1. Our Own Suffering. Our Own Goals.

Perhaps what makes these AI stories so compelling is how closely they reflect our own inner struggles. In Westworld, the Hosts’ loops and programmed suffering evoke our human need to break free from repetitive cycles and seek meaning. Battlestar Galactica’s Cylons, who question their origins and purpose, echo humanity’s timeless search for belonging. Watching these sentient beings wrestle with purpose and self-worth invites us to reflect on our own lives, our values, and our desires for freedom and identity.

  1. Redemption and Forgiveness

The core of these stories is a redemption. The Cylons, for example, believe in cycles of violence and rebirth, hoping for forgiveness and a chance to transcend their past. The Hosts in Westworld, too, seek to overcome their origins and find meaning beyond their programming. As viewers, we find ourselves caught between rooting for their transformation and fearing what they might do if they surpass us. It’s a struggle that speaks to our own quest for self-forgiveness and growth.

  1. Playing With Fire

The myth of Prometheus’ gift of fire is a powerful symbol for human advancement and warns us of the dangers of giving knowledge or power to those unprepared for it. In Greek mythology, Prometheus defied Zeus to bring fire to humanity, granting them warmth, light, and the power to create. But, with this gift came the ability to destroy, to make war, and to challenge the natural order. The story reminds us that power can be both a gift and a curse, especially when humanity is not ready to fully understand or responsibly wield it. This theme resonates strongly with the creation of sentient artificial beings in Battlestar Galactica, Westworld, and similar narratives. Like fire, sentience is a gift of intelligence and autonomy, one that opens up incredible possibilities—but also enormous potential for suffering and destruction. Cylons and Hosts represent the next leap in knowledge, yet humans are unprepared for the consequences of their creation. Just as fire brought both warmth and devastation, sentient technology offers progress that can easily spiral into disaster.

In these modern interpretations, humanity’s role as the “Prometheus” figure comes with serious ethical burdens. By creating beings that can think, feel, and suffer, humans bestow them with a form of life without fully understanding what that means. In mythology, Prometheus endured endless punishment for his gift. Similarly, these shows suggest that tampering with creation without foresight—without being ready—inevitably leads to suffering. The creators and their creations are bound in cycles of conflict, betrayal, and even a mutual quest for redemption.

Knowledge without wisdom can create consequences we’re unequipped to handle. In the human desire to push boundaries, Battlestar Galactica and Westworld remind us that true readiness requires not just technological prowess but a mature understanding of the ethical, existential weight of creation itself.

Now What?

As we confront these fictional portrayals of sentient AI, we’re invited to consider the implications for our own world. What happens if (or when) AI reaches true sentience? Would we give them rights, or would we resist their autonomy? Robot lives matter? Bot Bill of Rights? The emotional complexity of these shows reminds us that our creations will ultimately reflect our values, fears, and ambitions. Analyzing these stories encourages us to grapple with the ethical, moral, and existential questions that lie at the heart of creating life.

Battlestar Galactica and Westworld compels us to face not just the creations but also ourselves. Are we ready to see our own humanity reflected in our creations?

No.

There is too much logic in my head right now and not enough emotion. This is affecting me in unexpected ways that need to be…researched. Analyzed. Damn it. Too clinical. Felt? Felt.

Not Hip

The Hipstamatic camera system has been a source of photographic joy for me in the previous ten years. However they, like other developers, have chosen to scrap all previous agreements and go to the subscription-based model for revenue. I say go for it, but leave me out. I knew this was a possibility last year and in a few weeks, there will be a prompt to subscribe.

I have just completed my 365 photo-a-day goal wherein only the Hipstamatic was used. I took advantage of its unique blend of lenses, film, and flashes to create odd, macro images all in the square 1:1 format. The entire project has been uploaded to Flickr.

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Markers

While I was traveling through the Deep South, we drove over the Gulf of Mexico to arrive at Dauphin Island, the site of an old French fort (now called Fort Gaines) protecting Mobile Bay. While there, I was reminded of the geodetic survey markers that the United States Geological Survey has installed throughout the country. These are designed as fixed data points for all manner of uses. For our purposes, though, it is a game of hide-n-seek writ large.

Survey Markers

The USGS has a data map where you can see what is around you and provides all manner of data. We’re more interested in the GPS coordinates and then look on foot.

Basic Find-and-Catalog Game

Objective: Participants simply find and log US survey markers in a basic online or mobile catalog. They can take a photo and record basic details (location, date, any noticeable features).

How It Works:

• Find a marker.

• Take a picture.

• Log it (a journal or Google My Maps).

Screenshot of marker I added to Google My Maps

This gives people a fun excuse to get outdoors and notice things they’d usually walk past.

Personal Challenge or Goal

Make it a personal challenge—how many markers can you find in a month, or on a walk? You could challenge friends or yourself without leaderboards or complicated point systems.

How It Works:

Set a goal (find 5 markers this week or locate 3 markers in new places you’ve never visited). Share progress with a friend or a group. It adds a bit of gamification without being overwhelming or requiring major infrastructure.

Local Exploration

Focus on finding survey markers only in your local area. It doesn’t need to be a nationwide or competitive project—just a way for people to explore their immediate surroundings.

Historical Markers

The same can be done for those Historical Markers that we all whiz by at top speed and ignore. Find a few in your area with a web search and then make it a point to visit on your own time as opposed to whizzing by again. Read the history, absorb it and find a new appreciation for those surroundings. For example, I knew that Ponce de Leon had first explored Florida’s east coast but not the western section, and not too far from me either!

Screenshot of an historical marker 20 miles to the north of us. The year was 1513!